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OOC INFORMATION
Player Name: Teresa
Are you over 18?: Yes I am!
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Other Characters in Game: none!
IC INFORMATION
Character Name: Lord John Grey
Canon: Outlander
Canon Point: Book 8, Ch 13
Age: ~48
Background: wiki entry for LJG
Arrival Scenario: Thorne
Suitability: Lord John (who I will sometimes refer to as LJG since that is easier to type than his full name) will not be able to stop himself from being wrapped up in the plot of the game. Coming from the time and political atmosphere he has, he has not been here before exactly, but he has certainly "been here before". He is a soldier, an army man, and he has been through several/rebellions by now. He knows both what is involved as well as what is at stake. Besides that, he has a tendency to keep getting wrapped up in other peoples' problems (looking at you, Frasers...)
Powers: LJG is a regular old human with no special powers! He is good with a sword & gun and hand-to-hand combat, but he's theoretically from our world (albeit in the 18th century) and thus is just a normal human man!
PERSONALITY QUESTIONS
Describe an important event in your character's life and how it impacted them.
One of the most important things to ever happen to John (aside from joining the army but he was pretty much born into that) is John's attempt to capture the notorious Red Jamie. He was sixteen years old at the time and not even had his commission yet but his brother Hal had taken him along with the regiment to give him a taste for soldiering. He had been nervous and unable to sleep at their camp, wondering what the battle might be like and about the Highlanders they would face. Would he have the courage to stand up to them? And then he sees the man from the broadsheets there across the wood, the notorious Red Jamie Fraser.
There is a boy, Hector, who is in the regiment. A few years older than John himself, John looks up to him, and he is also in love with him. Later in life, John can't decide whether he is trying to impress or emulate Hector as he sets off after Jamie. But he decides that he will kill or capture him himself. Creeping out of camp alone, thinking that Jamie too was alone, sixteen-year-old John thinks he's about to catch the man unawares. But Jamie immediately had the better of him, tackling him to the ground, breaking his arm, and tying him to a tree. When John comes to, he finds himself in the midst of Jamie's camp and face-to-face with an Englishwoman in the midst of a group of Highlanders. Coming to the conclusion that they were about to do something nefarious with her, "Lord John William Grey, aged sixteen and filled to the brim with regimental notions of gallantry and noble purpose", had tried to bargain and save her, giving up information about where his brothers' canon were being kept.
They had laughed of course, because the Englishwoman was Claire Fraser, Jamie's wife, and she was never in any danger. They left John tied to a tree for his brother to find him alive and well. John, being again filled with noble purpose as a sixteen-year-old, decided that meant he owed Jamie a debt of honor, a life debt. When Jamie lies dying on the field of Culloden, Lord John's brother Hal, the Duke of Pardloe, comes looking for him among the wounded. Lord John and therefore by proxy, Hal, owes him a debt of honor after all, and therefore he is spared from being executed himself and sent home to Lallybroch to recover.
Lord John's initial meeting with Jamie will continue to haunt him throughout his life, until the next time that he and Red Jamie meet, this time at Ardsmuir prison, when the roles are reversed and John is now the warden and the power is in his hands. John's "hatred" leads to an obsession over Jamie as his prisoner, who he must force himself to interact with as a leader of the Highland men imprisoned there. And through those interactions, comes to understand Jamie Fraser as a gentleman and a friend. And eventually, falls in love with him. Even when he understands that Jamie will never love him in return.
Lord John's love for Jamie, and his accompanying devotion to Jamie and by proxy the whole Fraser clan, becomes a central theme in John's life. Going on to raise Jamie's son, to protect his daughter from harm by pretending to betroth her, to protect his wife from being convicted of treason by actually marrying her (it's a long story...), and so on and so forth. All set in motion because of that one night in the woods, when a sixteen-year-old, not-quite soldier decided to go off on his own and take fate into his own hands.
Does your character have a moral code, or other set of standards they try to live by?
Lord John lives by a strict code of honor. He is a very courteous and honorable man. He believes not necessarily in "good and bad", but in "right and wrong". He is also a homosexual living in the 18th century, at a time when this is punishable by death, and he has been a spy passing secrets across enemy lines for King and Country. He understands that breaking the rules is sometimes necessary. He's fought in wars so he understands that killing a man is sometimes justified. But he does (more or less) still follow the rules otherwise. He is a man of duty, through and through.
What quality or qualities do they admire most?
Qualities in people that John admires the most are respect, trust, and honor. These are things that he offers to most people, and he expects them from most people in return. It matters to him when any of these things are betrayed, for that matter. One of the biggest examples of that would be the juxtaposition between his relationship with his step-brother/former lover, Percy/Perseverance Wainwright, and his friendship with Jamie Fraser.
Percy was John's lover, but that trust was betrayed when Percy was caught having sex with a German soldier by John and two other officers. John is hurt and betrayed by Percy's actions. Not only that, but Percy is now up for a sodomy conviction, and there is no question that he will be hanged for it. John eventually helps him escape prison and flees the country, but John's trust is betrayed. The many times they run into each other since then, John can never forgive Percy for his actions.
Meanwhile, John and Jamie are from two very different backgrounds, and Jamie has some very personal hangups about John's sexuality and the feelings he has for him. But the pair of them are both honorable men, who hold true to their word and the people they care for. This is how John comes to earn Jamie's friendship, and Jamie John's in return. Jamie respects John, even despite his hangups, as a man of honor. He values that sort of respect most of all.
Do they have a part of themselves they dislike?
John would not change his sexual orientation, even despite the fact that it is presently punishable by death. But he is and has been suffering from unrequited love for Jamie Fraser for many, many years. He asks Claire at one point, in a moment of weakness, "do you know what it is to love someone and never--never!--be able to give them peace, or joy, or happiness? [...] To know that you cannot give them happiness, not through any fault of yours or theirs, but only because you were not born the right person for them?" He understands that his feelings will never be reciprocated by Jamie, and that does hurt him.
I would say he is perhaps at this point resigned to it. He has taken other lovers, and enjoyed himself with them. But none of them have the same hold over his life that Jamie Fraser does, nor would I say would any of them give him true happiness. Is he capable of finding it, with Jamie always there but just out of reach? It's hard to say for certain...
What is their sign, and why?
Justice: I went back and forth between this and the Hierophant for John, but at the end of the day he can break the rules if it is for the "right" reason. He broke Jamie out of prison to save his life, he broke Percy out to save him from being hung. He can and will act out spontaneously, out of emotion, challenging people to duels or, in one tragic case, hanging onto the legs of a hanged man so that he would have a swifter, cleaner death. That man was also being hanged for sodomy, and it would have done his reputation better to leave the situation to work itself out. It may even come back to bite him now, years after the fact.
He is also an army man, a soldier, an officer. He has been a governor by this point as well. He is a leader of men, the one who people turn to for answers in times of need. As I have said before, he is an honorable, capable man. They know they can trust Lord John to see things through.
SAMPLES
Samples:
Sample #1 - TDM
Sample #2 - Game top level
Player Name: Teresa
Are you over 18?: Yes I am!
Contact:
Other Characters in Game: none!
IC INFORMATION
Character Name: Lord John Grey
Canon: Outlander
Canon Point: Book 8, Ch 13
Age: ~48
Background: wiki entry for LJG
Arrival Scenario: Thorne
Suitability: Lord John (who I will sometimes refer to as LJG since that is easier to type than his full name) will not be able to stop himself from being wrapped up in the plot of the game. Coming from the time and political atmosphere he has, he has not been here before exactly, but he has certainly "been here before". He is a soldier, an army man, and he has been through several/rebellions by now. He knows both what is involved as well as what is at stake. Besides that, he has a tendency to keep getting wrapped up in other peoples' problems (looking at you, Frasers...)
Powers: LJG is a regular old human with no special powers! He is good with a sword & gun and hand-to-hand combat, but he's theoretically from our world (albeit in the 18th century) and thus is just a normal human man!
PERSONALITY QUESTIONS
Describe an important event in your character's life and how it impacted them.
One of the most important things to ever happen to John (aside from joining the army but he was pretty much born into that) is John's attempt to capture the notorious Red Jamie. He was sixteen years old at the time and not even had his commission yet but his brother Hal had taken him along with the regiment to give him a taste for soldiering. He had been nervous and unable to sleep at their camp, wondering what the battle might be like and about the Highlanders they would face. Would he have the courage to stand up to them? And then he sees the man from the broadsheets there across the wood, the notorious Red Jamie Fraser.
There is a boy, Hector, who is in the regiment. A few years older than John himself, John looks up to him, and he is also in love with him. Later in life, John can't decide whether he is trying to impress or emulate Hector as he sets off after Jamie. But he decides that he will kill or capture him himself. Creeping out of camp alone, thinking that Jamie too was alone, sixteen-year-old John thinks he's about to catch the man unawares. But Jamie immediately had the better of him, tackling him to the ground, breaking his arm, and tying him to a tree. When John comes to, he finds himself in the midst of Jamie's camp and face-to-face with an Englishwoman in the midst of a group of Highlanders. Coming to the conclusion that they were about to do something nefarious with her, "Lord John William Grey, aged sixteen and filled to the brim with regimental notions of gallantry and noble purpose", had tried to bargain and save her, giving up information about where his brothers' canon were being kept.
They had laughed of course, because the Englishwoman was Claire Fraser, Jamie's wife, and she was never in any danger. They left John tied to a tree for his brother to find him alive and well. John, being again filled with noble purpose as a sixteen-year-old, decided that meant he owed Jamie a debt of honor, a life debt. When Jamie lies dying on the field of Culloden, Lord John's brother Hal, the Duke of Pardloe, comes looking for him among the wounded. Lord John and therefore by proxy, Hal, owes him a debt of honor after all, and therefore he is spared from being executed himself and sent home to Lallybroch to recover.
Lord John's initial meeting with Jamie will continue to haunt him throughout his life, until the next time that he and Red Jamie meet, this time at Ardsmuir prison, when the roles are reversed and John is now the warden and the power is in his hands. John's "hatred" leads to an obsession over Jamie as his prisoner, who he must force himself to interact with as a leader of the Highland men imprisoned there. And through those interactions, comes to understand Jamie Fraser as a gentleman and a friend. And eventually, falls in love with him. Even when he understands that Jamie will never love him in return.
Lord John's love for Jamie, and his accompanying devotion to Jamie and by proxy the whole Fraser clan, becomes a central theme in John's life. Going on to raise Jamie's son, to protect his daughter from harm by pretending to betroth her, to protect his wife from being convicted of treason by actually marrying her (it's a long story...), and so on and so forth. All set in motion because of that one night in the woods, when a sixteen-year-old, not-quite soldier decided to go off on his own and take fate into his own hands.
Does your character have a moral code, or other set of standards they try to live by?
Lord John lives by a strict code of honor. He is a very courteous and honorable man. He believes not necessarily in "good and bad", but in "right and wrong". He is also a homosexual living in the 18th century, at a time when this is punishable by death, and he has been a spy passing secrets across enemy lines for King and Country. He understands that breaking the rules is sometimes necessary. He's fought in wars so he understands that killing a man is sometimes justified. But he does (more or less) still follow the rules otherwise. He is a man of duty, through and through.
What quality or qualities do they admire most?
Qualities in people that John admires the most are respect, trust, and honor. These are things that he offers to most people, and he expects them from most people in return. It matters to him when any of these things are betrayed, for that matter. One of the biggest examples of that would be the juxtaposition between his relationship with his step-brother/former lover, Percy/Perseverance Wainwright, and his friendship with Jamie Fraser.
Percy was John's lover, but that trust was betrayed when Percy was caught having sex with a German soldier by John and two other officers. John is hurt and betrayed by Percy's actions. Not only that, but Percy is now up for a sodomy conviction, and there is no question that he will be hanged for it. John eventually helps him escape prison and flees the country, but John's trust is betrayed. The many times they run into each other since then, John can never forgive Percy for his actions.
Meanwhile, John and Jamie are from two very different backgrounds, and Jamie has some very personal hangups about John's sexuality and the feelings he has for him. But the pair of them are both honorable men, who hold true to their word and the people they care for. This is how John comes to earn Jamie's friendship, and Jamie John's in return. Jamie respects John, even despite his hangups, as a man of honor. He values that sort of respect most of all.
Do they have a part of themselves they dislike?
John would not change his sexual orientation, even despite the fact that it is presently punishable by death. But he is and has been suffering from unrequited love for Jamie Fraser for many, many years. He asks Claire at one point, in a moment of weakness, "do you know what it is to love someone and never--never!--be able to give them peace, or joy, or happiness? [...] To know that you cannot give them happiness, not through any fault of yours or theirs, but only because you were not born the right person for them?" He understands that his feelings will never be reciprocated by Jamie, and that does hurt him.
I would say he is perhaps at this point resigned to it. He has taken other lovers, and enjoyed himself with them. But none of them have the same hold over his life that Jamie Fraser does, nor would I say would any of them give him true happiness. Is he capable of finding it, with Jamie always there but just out of reach? It's hard to say for certain...
What is their sign, and why?
Justice: I went back and forth between this and the Hierophant for John, but at the end of the day he can break the rules if it is for the "right" reason. He broke Jamie out of prison to save his life, he broke Percy out to save him from being hung. He can and will act out spontaneously, out of emotion, challenging people to duels or, in one tragic case, hanging onto the legs of a hanged man so that he would have a swifter, cleaner death. That man was also being hanged for sodomy, and it would have done his reputation better to leave the situation to work itself out. It may even come back to bite him now, years after the fact.
He is also an army man, a soldier, an officer. He has been a governor by this point as well. He is a leader of men, the one who people turn to for answers in times of need. As I have said before, he is an honorable, capable man. They know they can trust Lord John to see things through.
SAMPLES
Samples:
Sample #1 - TDM
Sample #2 - Game top level